ThanX for all the support! Its much appreciated!
For me an important part on the road to understanding this problem was that NOT drinking does not “solve” the problem of alcoholism. It is still there waiting… Understanding this has been very important for me. It tells me there is no right time to try and see how i will react this time. Also i live in squatted housing co-op that has a BAR!! dangerous material for sure :o. Some effort is being put in making that bar less about drinking and more about activities, for instance this week we’re trying to organize an improv evening, i think that will make things easier because i can totally shift attention to improv games. But we’ll see.
The hard part might be remembering that the shitty moments really were shitty moments and not fun moments of connecting with friends. So i will try and make up a way to remember my story. Maybe thats an idea.
[quote=“BlueHeron, post:11, topic:814”]TimeLESS, I remember you asked once if there were any rewilders on the forum who live near you.
Can you think of other ways to seek them out?[/quote]
Hmm im not sure there are some friends that im getting interested, im taking them gathering and they seem to have lots of fun doing that! They’re both housemates of mine.
[quote=“yarrow dreamer, post:10, topic:814”]hey timeLESS,
just another voice of support–not that I have a whole lot to add. I hope you can hear clearly your own voice guiding you where to go next.
How to heal the wounds? Whoa. Wish I had that answer too. :-[/quote]
Yes i pretty much know where im going from here, just by writing this stuff down somewhere. That has already helped me alot.
[quote=“BlueHeron, post:9, topic:814”]Timeless…
I’m so happy that you were able to connect your story with many, many thoughts about what you really want in life.
You seem to be very conscious of why you don’t want to drink. You are not in denial any more, and that’s huge. You are lucky, many people don’t get that far. I’m pleased (but not wholly surprised) that your discovery of rewilding has inspired you to want to break your addiction. I (for one) absolutely believe that rewilding can help you.
At this point you need a lot of support from people whom you can rely on. Please seek every recourse, and don’t be shy about sharing your experiences here. Billy, myself, and lots of the other forum members care about how you’re doing.
If you haven’t read My Name is Chellis… (yeah, the book that I talk about incessantly) I think it may hold a couple of pearls of wisdom for you. Chellis has some insightful things to say about the nature of addiction. (You can take or leave this advice, I’m just reminding you about it.)[/quote]
Rewilding made me question the totality of my existance. That includes my inner world. which as shown i found to be wounded and hurt as much as the world around me. I’ll look that book up because i’ve heard it mentioned here quite a few times… probably have to buy it somewhere haha
As to “coffee-people” there’s she-who-partners-with-me and i was thinking on telling my house-mates exactly where i stand right now so there wont be any confusion and they’ll be aware of my problems. Also i will talk more with my dad which is cool no matter what the situation!
When i quit smoking i drank lots and lots of water all the time! That was nice actually!
[quote=“heyvictor, post:8, topic:814”]Again, I really encourage you to find support in what you are going to do. People you can call and talk to. People who will go out for coffee with you when you need to talk to someone or when you are feeling the urge to drink.
A good counselor will be able to help you work through the issues that you need to address.[/quote]
I like the idea of “coffee-people” and would want to have some even i wouldnt have this problem. Thanks for your advice Heyvictor!