Hi everyone, I am incomplete and I am addicted to…
Chocolate and sweets used mostly as antidepressant drugs, as well as dairies, bread and food in general. I think the mix of bread, dairies and sweets reminds me of the breakfast at my parents.
And food, ooooooh food! any kind of, just getting my stomach full until dozing off and becoming unable to focus properly for one hour makes it worth to be one step closer to a stomach ulcer. There is one thing i am lucky with: i am this kind of guy who can only generate adipose tissue if sleeping no-stop for weeks.
Music, since years i am unable to be alone in a room without hearing some music. Yeah! music always helps feeling not so alone. Reggae for relaxing, and grotesque rock when in rage. Shiki no Uta when I’m feeling good or want to sink down completely. I can listen to this one for a hundred times in a row.
TV Series, I luuuuuv Dexter! And would love to be like him: unable to feel anything, i think it would help with a lot of problems. Samuray Champloo, One Piece, Ranma 1/2, the Ray Mears documentaries, Les Stroud…
Movies, any kind of, but mostly action movies and of course not sad.
Sleeping, the most basic kind of escaping. I should write a book with the weird dreams i use to have.
Research… about survival, bushcraft, primitive skills, surgery. From primitive plant poisons to how to make an appendectomy. Searching, finding and storing… so much i would need several lives to read it all. The good thing about it is that now I am able to find anything on the web. In some years I have amassed a really huge database.
Wasting the time, as a common habit since very small. The bad thing is that when small I was wasting the time against studying, but now i waste the time against practicing primitive skills. I live close to some kind of “forest”, in a place where i don’t need to pay rent or for food or internet, and still, despite having the whole day to practice everything i read about, i spend most of the time with a sad face, sinking down, not starting to do anything. Been an alone rewilder is not very productive
New projects: every day I give birth to at least one new idea for practicing, experimenting or research … So my lists of unfinished (or unresolved?) tasks are hanging everywhere around my room.
Hating people… people who smoke, who waste energy or food, who think for a long time how to tell you what they think you want to hear, who follow the rules of civ and encourage others to do the same…
There are many more, but I have no time to write them all down ;). Anyway, i think most of my addictions end up every time i spend some weeks in the forest,… gotta get outta here