SO I guess I have all the time in the world now. My job decided to let me go.
Honestly, there are only 2 reasons this bothers me, and both of them are my wife. My wife values employment. So much so that last year she worked a part time job for 3 months even though it cost herr more money to get there than she made. I seriously fear that if I remain unemployed too long she will divorce me. She’s already made me feel completely worthless.
The other reason is that even though I know I can find a way to live without getting a new job, I also know that she wouldn’t be willing to live that lifestyle. She reacts with hostility to “voluntary simplicity”, much less anything like rewilding.
With most people, I have to just chalk it up to civilization, but I can directly see how my wife’s family made her like this. Ever since we got married she’s been trying to put together a life that they would respect, in order to try to win the approval they’ve withheld fom her all her life. But any life they would respect, I can’t live. It’s just not possible. And now for the second time in the last year, I’ve been fired from an office job because I refuse to make my career my life’s ambition. She’ll never beleive I can hold down a job again, and because she’s been taught that your job is the end-all be-all of one’s worth, I can’t prove I’m worth anything anymore.
blah.