I'm getting father off topic here and breaking the positive rule I know but I guess I feel a need to vent.
It was no rule, just a preference. I understand your need to vent, though.
So where does this leave me? Am I just lazy and scatterbrained unable to stick with anything long enough to know if it really works or have I just not found my path yet? Either way I'm not overly concerned with it at this point. I just want to practice my primtive skills. Maybe that is my path for now.
I don’t feel righteous, and don’t feel I can tell you or anyone here or anywhere how to act or think. I am not perfect nor superhuman and don’t pretend to be. So now that we have all that shit outta the way…
A simple observation on your writings… everything you mentioned starting you also mention not completing. Gives a bit of a skewed perspective, don’t you agree?
It has been my experience that I am a poor judge of anything if I don’t experience it in its entirety. Judging a joke without hearing the punchline or walking out of a movie without seeing the ending, definitely affects how accurately I see it. I by no means am the best at seeing things through to the end, but then again don’t consider myself an accurate judge of them if I don’t follow through. Guess what I’m getting at is… feel free to vent if it makes you feel btter, but consider not judging stuff if you haven’t stuck with it to completion.
Hey, even at completion you might think something sucks ass. But that’s life. I was a Catholic for 16 years of my life (born into a Catholic famliy) and found that after experiencing it for all those years, I really didn’t like it. Infact, I found it harmful and inhibiting to my growth as a person and so decided to let it go.
As you mentioned, I believe that for some of us… just living life (for you that might mean primitive living) is all the spiritual practice we need. Take a look at the Fukuoka guy… he is just a farmer, but his insight into life is pretty incredible and some might say, spiritual. He was not of any particular religious inclination as far as I know, nor did he spend hours meditating in a lotus position on a cold floor. He just watched life and flowed with it… that to me is the purest form of spirituality… its simply being in life. Relatedness.
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