Fired for "lack of enthusiasm, growth"

[Navona]

My second goal is to start wandering freely every other day. I’ll drop my son off, pick a direction and see what I find. I’m hoping to find good foragables, help wanted signs in neat places, and for sale signs on empty lots or dilapidated structures.

You just reminded me what I promised myself to make time to do, but haven’t done in months. Thanks

Maybe I missed something and you already addressed this, but do you try to explain the logic behind rewilding to your wife? Have you explained to her that the only reason she has been conditioned to value nothing short but a wage slave job is so that the food can remain under lock and key? It seems that, until you are both on the same page, she’ll always be confused about what motivates you and you’ll have to constantly curb your desire to rewild in order to placate her… How can you share your lives with each other when you have such profoundly different worldviews?

[BottomFeeder]

Andrew, you will do well, trust me. I’ve walked down that path before, and ended up in a place that made me a better person.
I worked a job where I made absolutely huge money, all for the sake of my newborn daughter. I prostituted myself and sold my soul to that corporation, and was let go with not even a ‘howdy do’.
After the dust settled I stayed home with my young daughter for over a year, and was blessed with the quality time that only our hunter/gatherer ancestors could tuely experience…walking in the woods with her, showing her Mother Nature at her best…
…but this blessing came with a heavy price, and one has to truely see things with open eyes to be able to get through what you’re now experiencing. For me the heavy pricetag was the utter poverty my family fell into, and the destruction of my marriage.
The utter poverty for me at least was not that bad, as a matter of fact it was liberating. I fed my family for well over 9 months from dumpster diving(check out the freegan website if you’re interested). It was liberating because it instinctually put me into my survival/hunter-gatherer mode, and I personally thrived. I lived amongst this society, but not in it!
The heavy cost was it shattered my already weak marriage(how ironic some relationships are that you don’t see, or don’t wish to see their weaknesses till some great trouble raises it’s head).
As it stands, today my spouse and I still cohabitate with the understanding that when my daughter is 12 years old(6 yrs from now) we will part ways.
How does this fit into the lack of enthusiasm, growth question? Always remind yourself that whatever job you do it is only a means from which you ride this wave of collapse of civilization, nothing more.
Andrew, I personally do not know you, but my friend, my ‘clanmate’, you will do well.
Live Primitive in Peace
Alex

[Andrew_Jensen]

Thanks for the good words.

Update on status: I have discovered that the unemployment agency in my state will pay for training classes if I desire to switch careers. I’m totally going to milk that for all it’s worth to learn every skill I can bet my grubby little mind on. Horticulture classes, welding, OH yeah. They’ll also train me to start my own business. If I’m slick, I can get myself out to a permaculture certification class. If I’m really slick, I look forward to a future where I make my living by rewilding the urban landscape.

As to my wife: she doesn’t want to hear anything about collapse, or disaster, or the idea that things outside our control can go wrong. If I try to talk about disaster preparedness or the idea that we’ll have to live through at least a great depression event, she gets mad at ME. A year and a half ago I put together “bug out bags” for the family. Just having them around made her so mad at me because they implied that things can go poorly. She hated them so much that when we went camping together, she refused to look in her bag and instead packed heavy duplicates of everything I had for her. She hated them so much that I came home one day to find them thrown out in the yard. Fortunately, I’ve saved the day enough times with some bit of gear in my bag that she’s warmed up to them. But I’ve learned that I can’t talk Theory with her, she doesn’t want to hear it. In other words, it’s OK if I prepare, because then I can save her, but she’s not interested herself.

On the other hand, as a historical re-enactor, she’s interested in learning historical skills. She’s learning how to turn wool into yarn and then knit right now. It’s about finding a vector to sneak it in the back door with her. She may not care for talk about “food security”, but she enjoys a tasty meal made from foraged foods. In other words, she’s fine with DOING it, but doesn’t want to TALK or THINK about it.